“I’ve had all that I wanted of a lot of things I’ve had
And a lot more than I needed of some things that turned out bad”
— Johnny Cash, “Wanted Man”
I’m a twenty-six year drug addict and alcoholic, recently released from my bipolar disorder diagnosis– a gift of sobriety. This blog is under a pseudonym, originally for professional reasons, but lately I’ve been toying with the idea of using my real name. I don’t want to hide my addiction or my recovery. Addiction is a disease and I don’t want to have to hide behind the shame anymore. But I’m still undecided because there’s a lot of ugly stuff in this blog that I wouldn’t want an employer to find. So I’m undecided.
I started this blog at the suggestion of my therapist after sharing with her a short creative nonfiction essay, which is my preferred form of expression. As a recovering substance abuser, I’ll also occasionally intersperse some of my art, which is both driven by and a means of dealing with my illness.
So here’s to recovery and life, cheers to us!